Thursday, January 15, 2015

(W)REC(K) A BOOK: Reviled (The Master and His Soul Seer Pet 2)

This is a love story between an innocent girl and a jaded man, a pet and her Master, a soul seer who has yet to realize she's meant to save the world... and a powerful vampire who has yet to understand his heart still beats.

18-year-old Zari Baltimore
has her first taste of heartbreak upon finding out that her Master, the powerful and gorgeous vampire Alexandru, has long been in love with someone else.

Wishing for distraction,
Zari tries to keep her mind off her unrequited love by playing truant at La Scala Legaturia, a training ground for strengthening bonds between Masters and pets. But it doesn't work. She also tries to spend more time with Lord Erou, hoping it would make her Master jealous as well, but it doesn't work either.

Then Zari has another vision- of her fighting for her life against a demon -and suddenly, she's got more distraction than she bargained for.

- Goodreads

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UM. WHAT? On one hand I wanted a bitch slap (or two) for the other woman, but at the same time, the ending was perfect T_T.

Reviled starts off with a murder just outside the school buildings, a human man found with his neck ripped open by a human mouth. Zari isn't supposed to be there because it'll draw attention to her, an order her Master specifically gave her. However, when two girls are up for suspicions, only one of them gets looked at- and it's the wrong one.

Zari can't let go of the vision she had of seeing the other girl- Miranda Donnelly -kill, so she befriends Rhapsody Norwood when everybody else isolates her, set on clearing the false accusations. Rhapsody's a new student with an anonymous Master, but because of how odd she is, not everyone warms up to her. She's a cool chick, very robotic and to-the-point, but I suspect there's a lot more under her skin. It shows up later in the book.

Alexandru and Zari are adorable with their continued grumbles and relationship as pet and Master, but as he hunts down another demon on his mission, he suddenly comes back to the school, giving off the impression that he came to find out why Zari had been missing her classes. She feels like she's slowly losing him, and doing these things- missing classes, spending more time with Erou as she distracts herself with finding a way to reveal who the real killer is -might get him to finally show how much he does want her as a pet.

While with Erou, she has a vision of the monster again, but then she and Erou run into her Master, who's been watching them this whole time. He knows the other vampire wants his pet, but he will never give her up. Then Erou yells at Alexandru for wanting her, and when he demands Alexandru to admit that he wants her as more than a pet, Alexandru can't- and Zari sees it in his eyes.

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Oh, no.
I can't breathe.

It isn't until she touches him that she gets a vision- of the demon, her Master's target, hiding somewhere in the area. Her Master never came because he was worried about her like she and Erou had thought, it'd been because that target had come to the school. She can't take it anymore and she shouts about not feeling like his pet anymore, especially when they both know why he does his missions so well- so he can make Katarina proud of him.

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She later hangs out with Rhapsody when she can't be around her Master, and the girl cheers her up a little, but it all goes downhill when she later notices something on the message board. They have a new doctor, Katarina Anton. Then it shifts to Alexandru's POV, and we get a wonderful, ever-so-fucking-sweet peek into his mind as he tells us the reason why he calls out to Katarina (I REFUSE TO CALL HER KAT) in his heart after/during every hunt.

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Congradulations. You are officially the most hated Master.

Not knowing if it's a coicidence, Zari visits the new doctor, only to find out that this older, beautiful woman is in fact the Katarina that her Master gave his heart to. She doesn't know how to feel, and it doesn't help that she can see why her Master fell for her. She wants Alexandru happy, but if she just keeps on hurting, is it really such a good thing to be his pet any longer?

She eventually finds the demon and goes after it herself, but not before calling her Master so he can locate her and hopefully save the poor Miranda. Katarina ends up saving her, something she doesn't know how to feel about, but then everyone else is there to help- including her Master. Zari is relieved to see him, but when Katarina starts calling him, Alexandru sees the light die in her eyes, and that does something to him. He can't let his pet go like that, so he ignores Katarina's calls, immediately feeling guilty for it but knowing that if he ignores his pet to go to her... something bad will happen.

He reaches out for Zari, even goes so far as to reprimand Katarina when she tries to talk to him again-

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-and it's a little satisfying, but then she goes "Oh, I know that you need to see to your pet first, but I'm here to fight for you now and I will have you blah blah."

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"Bitch, what?"

SHE IS SO ANNOYING. And I've seen enough of their POVs to rightly say so! First he falls in love with her because he wanted to be saved and she seemed like a cool chick at the time, but then she leaves him because she can't handle the pressure (not fighting for their love! Grr! She's bad for you!) and tells him she'll always love him. And you know what? That's total bullshit because she knew that- as a good guy -he would take that in a literal way and thus make her the only love of his stupid life! UGH! Alexandru I just wanna-

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Like seriously.

It ends with Alexandru pampering her in their room, and when she remembers that he told her he'd let her go if she ever asked, she looks up at him to ask and, seeing the look in her eye, he begs her right back with his gaze not to ask him of it.
"You are so unfair, Master."
Even as she tells him this, she lays down on his lap and lets him pet her as she soaks him in. He feels guilty for making her stay in a position that obviously hurts her, but he can't let her go. It's a really sad and touching ending. T_T

The world of Reviled continued to float off the pages as I read this and I enjoyed seeing more of Alexandru (grr) and Zari. The heartache is definitely there because she struggles between being a good pet and knowing when to look out for herself, (cause her Master sure as hell won't! Not in the way she needs him to be) but the worse struggle of all is just deciding on whether or not her Master is good for her, and that is a very scary- nearly impossible -thought for a pet to have.

She's an amazing pet so she won't ever leave him, but if it means having to deal with the pain in her heart to the point of death, is he really such a good Master in the end? He can't even give her his heart, because a woman from his past has it. Katarina doesn't even deserve it because of how she's treated him. We all know she's only coming back because of Zari. UGH!!! CURSE YOU ALEXANDRU.

But back to the review. The story flowed very nicely all together; the POVs, the plots and background stories, all of it. The characters stayed true to themselves and I liked seeing some of them mature/change. I cried a lot when the bad parts came up because of how personal the relationships between pets and Masters are for me, but Zari was so cute with her Master that I couldn't help but laugh at their moments together, as well as her time with her seemingly newfound friends, Erou and Rhapsody. I hope Alexandru starts getting a taste of his own medicine because I'm at the brink of killing him myself. T_T

I recommend this series regardless of how frustrating the Master is because of how good the story is and will be in the future. I also recommend this author because of how crazy she can make me most times- okay a lot of times -with her books. They've all got their own shit to deal with but their loves are always worth it all, and that is why I have no doubt that they'll end up together. I just wanna see him suffer a little. :P

And now some parting words before I leave-

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Katarina, I forgot to give you a gift!

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Happy Unbirthday!

Have another gift.

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But you know what I think?

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That must be it.

Praise Jesus.

And a Happy Reading to the rest of ya =^~^=

(W)REC(K) A BOOK: Ensnared (That Master and His Soul Seer Pet 0.5)

Before Zari Baltimore came to study at the La Scala Legaturia or the School of Bonds, she was once an ordinary human girl. This book shows the beginning of a love story between an 18-year-old soul seer and a Master vampire.
From New York Times and USA Today Bestselling Author Marian Tee

18-year-old Zari Baltimore's life has been turned upside down. Her parents are missing, trolls have taken her captive, and she's about to be sold to the highest bidder as a human pet.

Naked and chained, Zari is close to losing all hope when she finds a powerful, gorgeous vampire in her room. His name is Alexandru, and he says he is there to rescue her. But first, he needs her to do one thing.

He wants Zari to make sounds like she's enjoying sex with him.

Did she really hear him right?
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It was a delicious treat to the series Beholden!

We see a really goofy act of Alexandru as he sneaks into the troll hideout to get the soul seer, Zari, but when he actually meets her, she already begins to grow on him. His plan to keep her with him until his men can move out on the plan becomes hilarious when he makes her act like he's having his way with her, but instead of sex, she's making it seem like she's being savaged by an animal- and not in the good way.

I laughed so hard in this scene, and at the same time, things were getting heated! It was funny being in Alexandru's thoughts, and it's obvious that he's attracted and intrigued, but at the same time, he just has to make a comment about not being able to really give his all blah blah blah blah bitch blah blah. Infuriated me again but hey! It just means their love story will be even more epic. :P

Another interesting thing while reading this was seeing Zari's mind work as she locked eyes with Alexandru, spent time with him, and somehow began to feel just how perfect of a Master he would be for her, even when she acted indifferent and outraged.

I hope they have a really good ending. T__T I'm gonna die if she has to share him with that woman. Ugh.

Happy Reading =^~^=

(W)REC(K) A SET: Alphas Prefer Curves

BBW Romance boxed set!

Hot alpha males come in all flavors, from fierce shifters and swaggering rockstars to bad boy bikers and seductive billionaires, men of action and passion. In this collection of standalone BBW romance novels and novellas by the writers of the wildly popular Curvy Girl Romance group, the hunky heroes all have one thing in common: These alphas prefer curves.

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I review as I read with bundles, so this will be updated repeatedly until finished.
Books read is not in order, so scan through.

Dangerous Protector by Milly Taiden- 5 stars
Cynthia Vega had a good reason to leave James Brock, the only man she loved, after accepting his marriage proposal. Now she's back. And he's not willing to ignore their chemistry or the past.

The Paranormal unit was hilarious, a comedy relief and safe haven (see: family) for the serious, soul-staining work they do. Most of their victims are found dead, but the ones they do rescue make it all worth it. When Vega comes back, it puts Brock through a horrible tirade with himself: ignore the woman who broke his heart after vanishing for ten years or refuse to let her slip through his fingers again?

He chooses right. Their sexual tension builds as they're forced to work together, and when Vega searches for her missing cousin, he helps her, and eventually they come back together with lots of hot sex. But he needs to know why she left him, and as they meet some members of her crazy family and the small town they live in, it isn't long until we see why she left him: her bloodline is tainted with mental diseases. She left him because she loved him enough to let him go so he could have a normal wife and family, but he calls her crazy and they get back together <3.

When she didn't even check to see if she had the illness, at first I was a little shocked because she'd left a guy she loves for ten whole years. You're gonna leave that man over a fear you could've checked? But then she mentioned kids and passing it down, and then it made a little more sense. The copy I got had a few errors in this story. Otherwise I loved the world I visited. I so wanna see that taunting tiger again XD

A Prowl On The Wild Side by Erika Masten- 4 stars
Curvy girl Vanessa is haunted by nightmares, dreams of being an animal, and sleepwalks naked. What's she doing losing her heart to a 6'4'' Nordic Adonis with fangs and fur? That's just crazy.

Vanessa thinks she's crazy because the super-senses and memories she has are all denied as her imagination by her brother and boss. It isn't until she decides to approach the sexy Nordic god she's been unceremoniously flirting with from a distance (for months) that she enters the world of shifters. Her dream of being a lioness is not a coincidence, and the wolf with piercing eyes is no mistake to overlook.

So I'm not gonna lie, I totally read "6'4'' Nordic" and thought:
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Eric Salo is a yummy wolf who's long accepted the warrior life- it's either die in battle or risk searching for his mate and failing, losing the rest of his humanity to the beast and succumbing to the final transformation before living the rest of his life as a four-legged predator. Sounds real sucky, doesn't it? So when he spots Vanessa coming at him, he can't help but play with the temptation of having her for just a few moments- before he accidentally brings trouble to her. Not only has her big brother, Aubrey been hiding her latent self from the world, but he's been working for The Agency (government killers of supers) to keep her invisible from the agents and the shifters- especially the Panthera. And Eric exposes her to all of them.

Aubrey kinda makes it up to her in the end, and Vanessa chooses her delicious wolf over the wonderful offer of getting to breed with her own kind. It's a cute ending to the story, but it made me wonder about their future after HEA- what if one of them came across their mate? But at the same time, I have to wonder if in this world, "mate" is really just another word for "most compatible" rather than 'soulmate', in which case it makes more sense lol. This rating's a star away from perfect because some sentences throughout the book were missing words and were worded weirdly or too long, tripping me up a lot and forcing me to reread or go back a few lines. It ruined the enjoyment, otherwise I really liked Vanessa and Eric. :3

Bear Biker Love by Harper Ashe
He's a sexy, leather-wearing Alpha bear who needs to find his mate. She's a curvy, brunette BBW who believes in fate. Will they take a romantic ride with destiny?

Bear The Heat by Catherine Vale
Rescuing Sonya from a fire is only the beginning. It's instant chemistry, a passion that burns as bright as the very fires that threaten to consume them.

Heartbitten by Aubrey Rose
When a snarky billionaire vampire meets a curvy grad student, he loses his heart and finds true love.

Distracting the Billionaire's Son by Jordan Bell
Curvy girl Jessica discovers a distraction in Jonah that could help them both forget the troubles that soon threaten to destroy what fragile pleasure they've found in each other.

The Billionaire's Curvy Guide by Danielle Duncan
When Zoe and Bastian meet, it's magnetic. But Zoe doesn't want to risk her job and Bastian won't back down. Only one of them can win this battle of wills- but what will the loser really lose?

Soldier by Liliana Rhodes
Hitman, killer, Dante Gambino, that's who I am, but none of it mattered until I met Gia. I will protect her and keep her safe, but doing so will push her away forever. I must kill her brother.

Something True by Malia Mallory
Rocker Liam Smith's in trouble- again. A charity founded to entertain hospitalized kids seems ideal for his community service, and the director Shelley Taylor is as curvy as his favorite guitar.

Heart Racer by Marian Tee- 5 stars
Greek billionaire biker Leandro Christopoulos wants snarky Roberta as his fake girlfriend, and he's willing to lie about loving her to make it happen.

This story is two separate novellas, Heart Racer and Driven by Love, put together to have a HEA. I go into a whole rant about the first book here, and the second one riiiighhht over here. Otherwise, enjoy.

Leandro's been a very bad boy in all the right ways by female standards, but after his dad ends up in the hospital, the Greek billionaire exiles himself to the States in the hopes of changing his image to help aid in not only his father's recovery, but in regaining political points for him. And what better way to do that than have his playboy image settle down with a pretend girlfriend?

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He sets his eyes on Roberta aka Bobby, but when he sees the snarky, intelligent and very guarded girl naked, he decides to pursue her. He even listens to his cousin's advice about Bobby only having sex for love, and before he knows it, he's fallen for her and blurting out the words to keep her with him. He knows he'll regret it just as much as he knows that if she ever finds out, he'll lose her forever.

And he does lose her, by falsely accusing her of something and exposing the truth to hurt her. He realizes the mistake far too late and when his dad dies, he repents for a year before getting her back. It only appears that she's moved on, but in actuality, her own pretend boyfriend is what's keeping her from completely losing it after Leandro's betrayal. Leandro and Bobby have a very rough get-back-together, but they realize the love they have for one another is worth fighting for, and they end up together. <3

This couple is crazy. Don't get me wrong, Leandro's adorable with his attempt in being a better man, and I totally loved watching him change for Bobby without even knowing it, but he is as stubborn as she is prideful. The maturity in the year they were separated certainly made him more drool worthy, and I cried when Bobby kept hurting him with her pretend beau. While he matured, she dulled out. He fought for her so hard until she drew the last straw for him, and it wasn't until then that she decided to go after him. A little back and forth- I wanted to choke her, but I understood that she almost lost her mind with his lies so it's understandable that she'd be scared to "give in so easily".

I love their love and their story. Everything flowed nicely, I cried; laughed; hid in my room during the naughty scenes. Really loved it. <3

Jade by Olivia Rigal
For a young genius like Jade few things are a challenge except maybe a bowl of ice cream or a normal conversation with a guy. Until Oliver shows her curves are meant to be rocked.

Kings of Asphalt by Alexx Andria
Curvy reporter Zoe Delacourte wants MC leaders Jax Traeger and Hunter Ericksen. Some might call them bad men but Zoe doesn't care! She wants the bad boys in her bed!

Operation: Burlesque by Michelle Fox
When Ruby Palmer signs on to work as a seamstress for the steamy Cirque D'Amour, the spotlight won't take no for an answer, and neither will the circus' handsome, enigmatic magician, Blake Cannon.

KANE by Eliza Gayle
Kane Gunn has a kill order to fill and when he catches the curvy woman who's become his obsession he is consumed by a desire that overwhelms everything, including his quest for justice.


Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Click (Heart Racers #5)

Helios Andreadis, the gorgeous, rich, and powerful President of the Afxisi, will do everything it takes to rescue the girl he loves. She has gone through so much pain, most of it caused by his own cruelty. The thought of her having to suffer again, and this time in the hands of a sadistic trafficker with a ruthless and gruesome fascination for violating human flesh--- He would never let that happen. He would do everything to get her back, even if it means doing the one thing she may never forgive him for.

MJ Cartwright has always done her best to lead a sunny, optimistic life - even when all the chips are down and she's literally black and blue from all the injuries she's gotten from her "father". But now, it feels impossible to even consider the mere existence of hope, with nowhere to run, no one to help her, and nothing to make her reality less true.

If all she can look forward to is being a sex slave to a monster, maybe... it's time to give up. She would never be able to go back to Helios after this anyway.

- Goodreads

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If you do not wish to be this little girl in the pouring rain, don't read it without being very prepared, as this is the darkest of her books in Marian Tee history, an author well-known for her mushy gonna-puke-it's-so-adorable couples and I'd-do-it-all-for-you love. MJ is kidnapped, medically touched down there, forced to do oral sex, and forced to willingly let her captor physically damage her, all in order to avoid being raped.
I don't mean to scare the sensitive off, but this book really affected me (and I like the dark stuff) so it's only fair to at least caution you before reading this book.

I knew this was dark- was even warned myself -but I wasn't expecting the intensity. MJ and Helios have got to be her biggest power couples because of what they went through to get back to one another. After MJ was taken, days had passed and Helios was getting nowhere with finding her. The fact that the first 72 hours are crucial to finding someone before they become nearly impossible to find doesn't help. He started with the man James loathed, MJ's real father, but only found out that it was a Greek named Vlahos, the father of Ioniko (The Art of Catching a Greek Billionaire series) and Katya, MJ's good friend. His step-mother and brother, Herod know nothing about it, though Herod does inform him of Manolito's masochist daughter, Gracie.

*You know what that means.*
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I WANTED TO DIE WHEN THIS CAME UP. Think about it! Helios needs to find her, and who else would know where that fucking sick psycho is if not his only cherished daughter? He can't just go up to her and ask about Daddy Soon-To-Be-Deadest, so what else can a handsome man like himself do to get a woman to talk?

Can he threaten to kill her?
No, she'd enjoy it too much and wouldn't talk. Then the dad would know if she ever went missing and- it'd just be too risky where MJ's concerned.


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Helios is desperate, willing to do anything to get MJ back without hesitation. Even if it means destroying himself, because that's what fucking this sick chick is going to do to him. He can't even think of another woman, and yet here he is, needing to catch Gracie's eye to get in on the inside (no pun intended). In order to even seem available after telling the world he's MJ's, however, he needs to look the part. So he fucks countless women-

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-to look like he's moved on, and he has to do it for weeks with the media right behind him before he can then take on the name Thanatos, a well-known sicko who enjoys killing with his sex, to enter Gracie's club and catch her eye. The real Thanatos is actually a woman you wouldn't suspect, but the Afxisi use all their power to find her so Helios can take on her identity, and she informs them about a ball Manolito does, a place only Gracie would be able to take him to undetected. The guys, Helios, Kellion, Yuri and Andreus all see how sick she is (but she doesn't touch kids, so that counts for something in my book) and although they stop Helios from outright killing her, Andreus cuts one of her fingers off. It's nothing new to him, another fact that shocks his brothers, and it's a thing they all plan to talk about when everything is done.

Meanwhile, while Helios is fucking and throwing up at how disgusting he feels in his heart and soul, MJ is on a medical slab, having her hymen reconstructed because Manolito likes deflowering virgins, he likes when it hurts and sees the world within his victim shatter in their eyes. Mother-fucking-sick-psycho-ass-

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The doctor hired by Manolito has been through this multiple times, but something in MJ's fighting expression causes him to tell his boss that she needs three months to recover if he wants it to be intact. Dude just bought Helios three months to find her before she dies from the inside out. If he hadn't done that, Helios would've been going to that ball with MJ either already raped and soulless or dead and unrested. So can we just have a 'thank you' to the good doctor?

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I wanted to cry for Helios and MJ, but the things Helios had to do hurt a little more, and I think it's because of how heartbroken MJ would've been to know what he had to go through for her. Helios would've lost it if he knew what she had to do to stay alive, but- idk. I think I just related to MJ more from the beginning, so even though this story had multiple POVs, it was Helios' that made me cry whenever he fucked someone.

And they did their share of self-sacrifice. Just as her sun god screwed to look good, she had to find ways to entertain Manolito. After she'd left the doctor, Manolito came in and just stuck his fucking fingers inside of herrrrrrr like he was her property, wanting to see if it was truly reattached before leaving her alone.

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That alone is so disgusting and violating!

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Although she was given three months, the days passed quickly. She didn't want to be raped or touched anymore than needed, so she distracted him with her knowledge of injuries, giving him- begging him -to hurt her in ways she secretly knew wouldn't be permanent but still look savaged. She even went down on him, and every time she succeeded in distracting him and winning his favor, James only grew in anger, until eventually, he showed her a tabloid featuring Helios and his most recent fuck...

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The sight kills something in MJ, but it's worse because Manolito hears and sees everything, and he beats her up until she blacks out. Switching over to James' POV, he gets found by Helios' men. After some persuasion-
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-he admits that they're somewhere in Vegas, and when he's forced to tell them that he showed MJ the newspapers of Helios, and that Manolito gives the women who displeases him to his men to feast on... they torture him. The same way he tortured MJ all those years ago. Every biker jumps over him, ripping his eyelids off, taking skin- until Helios takes his turn, and lands right on the bastard's skull.

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The most satisfying kill in the whole book.
Everyone else's was too fast.

Helios eventually gets invited to Manolito's ball as Gracie's date, and when he gets there, a plan is put in place with a time schedule that Helios must heed to. With Gracie, he meets Manolito; the sight of MJ nearly tears him apart, and MJ just wants to die when he sees her dressed like a bride and degraded. Helios can't do shit because his men are not ready yet, so he waits with a nearly drugged out Gracie. And then Manolito is leading MJ to the alter where the ceremony of the deflowering will begin. And he is lying down with her guided to be on top of him. With an extra giant of a man brought in to double team her.

The plan is mere seconds away but he can't take anymore, and the moment he kills Manolito, everything goes to shit. The sight of a dead body shocks MJ's second rapist into moving forward, and he unintentionally completes her violation. Helios kills the man and brings MJ into his arms, but it is too late. She cannot stop screaming. And she will never stop.

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A month's passed, and MJ is with her newly discovered half-sister, Katya. She feels blessed to have lost a horrible father and gained a real, loving family, but although she tries to act strong, she feels a part of herself die every day. She asks Katya to take her away from everyone (aka Helios) for good, and I totally burst into tears when he went to see her, and she cried about not being able to love him because she still feels dirty as he rapes her every night and owns her, even in death.

If Helios ever gave up after doing everything he just did to get her back, I don't know what I would've thought. Or done. Even the Afxisi are telling him to give up because it seems like MJ might never recover, but he goes to her again anyway, to- in his drunken state -prove that he still and will always love her. And how does he do that? He does a stunt right outside her window and... crashes. And MJ watches it all without feeling a thing. It isn't until he's taken into the hospital that she sinks within herself and realizes that she had just turned into James, making Helios earn her love the very same way he made her work for it. It breaks something inside of her, and she tells a concerned Katya:

"I don't understand what's happening to me, Kat. All I know is that for his sake, I have to stay away before he finds out that I'm happy... I'm happy when he's hurting."

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I thought I couldn't get any sadder... until this. How sad and real this all seemed. When one is hurt, they take on one of two roles: the predator and the prey. MJ taking on the tendencies of a predator enjoying someone else's pain made it all more real and I just wanted to-

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Helios hears it all, and the next day, he confronts her as she's leaving the hospital to go disappear somewhere with her siblings. He begs her, pleads with his soul for her to stay, but when she doesn't, he-

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He sees how dirty she feels, and he yells at her that if he needs to be raped so she will feel better about it, so that she can feel like they're on the same level, he'll do it. He'll get raped. He starts yelling out how much men she wants fucking him before he crumples in front of everyone and begs her to not go.

"And then it clicks"- oh WHATTHEFUCCCKKKKKAAAACCKKKUUUGHHHHHHH T_T I get that she was traumatized and it's super sad and it's even more FUCKED UP that she has to see him crumple like she did on the inside before she can take the chance. That's what really made me wanna just tear my heart out- that she needed to see him close to near death before taking the chance. Like-

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So it sucks that she needed to see him go real low but she finally realized that she was just really scared that everyone she loved would turn their backs on her for being dirty. She runs back to him and they hug each other for the longest time, and then it's a year later in the epilogue that we are invited to their wedding. It's a beautiful wedding in a chapel with countless people watching, and after they have beautiful sex, she has a dream of Helios beating up the personified version of her fear- dubbed Panic -and... well it's just hilarious XD Made me laugh and think almost all of it worth it.

When this book ended, I was completely drained. I'd cried at almost every turn, but it wasn't tears from my eyes. My heart cried every time they had to sacrifice a piece of themselves to survive, a piece for a piece and a future with their loved one. Sacrifices of the heart are bad enough, but having to deal with some of the darkest things this world has to offer-

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Helios and MJ were so brave. Either of them could've just broken down and cried, but they fought. This couple fought with their love driving them to live, even when either felt like they would be too dirty in the end. It was definitely an ultimate love, a novel to show just how intense Marian Tee creates all her loves, that even as every couple's situation is different, their love for the other is still as dedicated, aggressive and passionate. Nothing can kill it.

Click left me numb in the heart, but it was also a very great story to read. Definitely unforgettable. I love the dark shit so it didn't exactly scar me, but it did make me sad that two beautiful, pure people had to go through something so degrading and soul-staining. The whole thing was brilliant in its action-packed thriller romance. There were multiple POVs and it flowed nicely with the plot of the story.

I pretty much did this while reading:
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The only thing I can think to criticize is that Yuri's younger sister was Hallie in Swish and Burn, but is referred to as Hailey in this one. I'd add in MJ's reluctance to go back to the man who gave up everything for her, but it's more of a thing you'd have to understand- I wouldn't want to have my love take me back because of how dirty I felt, but at the same time, I'd be scared to go to him and be turned away because of what happened. That's a fear to be understood, so it's not something to be judged. Otherwise, I cried, cried, died, was brought back by their love to cry again loved everything :)

I recommend this amazing love series and the author herself, I love all the love she writes about and how she's not afraid to add the flavors. Recommend- Recommend- Recommend. :)

Oh, and-

Manolito Chavez. Remember that name when you want to bless the world with some goodness and you need to volunteer someone to play Satan's bitch sacrificial lamb.
*Please refer to evil Manolito's, not any unfortunate
ones who share his name*

Oh, and Manolito?

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I'll be thinking of you :)

*Well if that isn't the fucking creepiest thing I ever saw-*

I feel like I just spoiled the whole goddamn thing of Click, but what the hell.
It's how I do my spoiled reviews. :P

Happy Reading =^~^=